Sik World - I Hate New Years

It’s January 1st 2021 
And I’m in my feelings 
And I just wanna rap
Fuck a hook 

Yeah, why do I feel like I’m depressed
I feel like my whole life is a motherf*cking stress
Sometimes I see the news and wish that I could die next 
It’s a crippling feeling that most could never digest  

Every January first I don’t wanna wake up
That's the day I met this girl who totally fucked me up
Mentally, the ptsd’s hurt and all of it sucks
It left a hole chest that money can’t cover up 

Was never enough, I felt it deep in my bones
Always feeling disconnected, always glued my phone 
Tired of fakes friends, I cut them off so now I’m alone
They don't love me for me they only love me cuz I’m known


I got fans who support me and wanna see me win 
But I feel like a loser Im a need a bottle of gin
I made a million dollars but there’s nothing to give
If there’s god, tell me where has he been 

I been searching for real
Every new years, I get in my feels
Cuz I hate the way that I fucking feel
I got scars that don’t heal

It’s a new year but it’s the same pain in my heart
And that’s a hurt thats gon’ stick with me still
I wonder if real love is something that I can find
In a world full a fakes who keep wasting my time

I been questioning my faith 
And I’m losing my mind
If god is real then
Show me sign